This Year I Hope I'm a Better Person to the People I Love,

She's gone.

It's been only five moths but it feels like years,

I'm sorry for being so mean,

I'm sorry for not listening to you,

I'm sorry for being a bad cousin,

I miss the way she used to ask me

"are you going to miss me?"

and I would say no.

but now I regret it,

I wish I could go back and tell you

Yes I'm going to miss you more than

anyone in the world.

This year I hope I'm a better person to the people I love,

I remember her smile,

I remember her laugh,

I remember her jokes,

I remember the look in her eyes,

but after some weeks I won't

and now I'm afraid.

I feel sick she'll say

It's nothing

weeks later the doctor told us

she had cancer.

You'll survive I said,

I'm not.

Yes you will,

I'm going to miss you

Go to sleep.

This year I hope I'm a better person to the people I love,

I miss you, Alexa.